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Posted 06-23-2008 at 11:41 PM by sch4tzji

Sometimes it's better to leave words unsaid and gather what you still have left inside, lay it out and see where to go from there. Broken pieces of a life that you thought for once was finally going to come together and work for a change goes somewhere. But where?....it all makes no sense and your left with a cold numbness inside that shows no mercy. The days and especially the nights are but a blur and your wondering if you are ever going to find that place of contentment and peace you felt within the mist of confusion dancing in your head. The voices become all to real that you argue with, reminding you of the mistakes you made, yea, all to real and at a time when your mind seems to always win, not letting you feel what's in your heart; but you yourself know what that is.

Just like you know it all begins with you and what you have to do to be where you want to be, and all the time hoping will it be enough to pick up the pieces and start a new. Life is just too short to waste on complicated things, it is best to never look back and play that song that has already been sung and dwell on what has already been said and done. Everyday is a new day, a new beginning.

True Love comes but once in a lifetime and it's up to you to choose, there's nothing wrong with starting over and going forward but there is everything wrong with staying where you are right now and looking back, you can talk yourself right out of happiness and being with the love of your life and most of all lose everthing you hold dear... don't be afraid to let go. Have faith in yourself and in your relationship with the one you truly love, faith has nothing to do with feelings, impressions, outward appearances, nor the probability or improbability of 'why' things turn out the way they do, faith is not dependent on them, your life is just what you make it. The road of life can be hard if you choose to make it that way. It is time to stop all the nonsense that makes everything and everyone around you spin out of control. It doesn't have to be so hard to make the right choices.

Take hold and control of what's keeping you from change, everything in life is about change, we may not like it but if things stayed the same all the time what would that be like? and Self is the first place to start, being thankful for coming out of where you use to be, realizing where you are and where you want to go is a journey within itself, planning what to take with you and what to leave behind, old baggage and what once was, only weighs you down, looking forward to the hopes and dreams you plan for the future will be a new learning experience, it takes your breath away by just thinking about it and being with the one you love makes it all worthwile. Sort out all the bad things, that keep you where you don't want to be, clear your mind and come to the realization that it's not all about you, let those in who love you and don't be afraid to love them back.

Do yourself a favor and contemplate- look real hard within and ask these questions, Be open and honest with yourself and decide what truly matters to you and just do it. You can't live the life you want for you based on looking back on what might have been, that was then, what matters is now, what was wrong then stayed, but you didn't, if it was wrong then, and nothing has changed, what makes you think it will be right for you now? All it's done has come full circle, right where it all began, are you any happier with yourself, have you tried to accomplished what you set out to when you first walked away, is it better to take three steps back, and put everything else on hold just because it seems ok, and this is where you want to be for now. You want let yourself think about anything else, or anyone else until what draws you back makes sense-what lies within your being that causes you to do the things you don't really want to do, but do anyway, for just a little while maybe, its what could have been, the puzzle piece that was missing back then, will it fit now, do I really want it to?

Sooner or later a choice has to be made, it's all up to you.